Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Happy Birthday

Yes...its HIS birthday today..and am not able to be there to celebrate his birthday

...last year..i had exams...this year....well...

No matter wut, he will still stand an important place in my heart...now and forever...

All the best and i hope that he will stay happy as alwis...

thats my wish for him...

Happy 19th Birthday once again....

<3

Sunday, November 18, 2007

First Year Comm/Law 2007

Yes..my exams have officially ended...but it din end well and gave me a good memory abt it..

My last paper was foremost disappointing...i shall neva forget how i felt when i hand in my paper..for others, it was joy and for me, it was grief and sorrow..and regretful...

A random conversation of mine and my fren
My frens: Janet, exams are over...! you koe dat?

Me: Yes, of coz i koe..and i force a bitter smile...

(To me..it doesnt make a difference...coz..i have done so badly in the exams for dis sem...dat i hav nothin to look forward to...in a months time, i shall face the punishment myself while looking at my results..haihz..its no one's fault but mine...)

I just pray that i wont fail my torts especially..just a Pass

thou i wanted to do better...

Forcing a smile when u r sad wasnt easy...mom was trying to cheer me up these few days..but i guess i jus need time to get over it...

My freshman year has thereby gone away...without me realising, my First year of uni's life has passed! so quick and so swift...4 more years to go! Long way...

I just hope that things will get better in future...


Well. if u were thinking y am i so emotional at this time, i guess Mushu, the mischievous dragon in Mulan was right: 'Dragons are emotional!"

Koe its random..but well..it may be true at times..

Till then people~

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Internet OFF!

Hell! its exam period now..as most of you people koe...and afta my accounting paper..i have been having thoughts of Failure...thinking dat all figures i put in are wrong...my confidence level just went down...haihz...everything im not too sure now...im so stupid in my cash flow..alrite, watever..i cant even remember the questions anymore..
And another bad luck thingy, my internet at home is gone! it just happen one day and there you go, i cant go online at home! im in the law library now! Just came out to check something for my studies...
2 papers gone and 2 papers yet to come...
I have a feeling dat i wont do well dis semester coz im just too playful...guess im influenced by my 'devils' frens...some ppl jus can hav fun and score well..but it jus doesnt work on me...
Right, time to go..just in case u guys are wondering how im doing...
Gota work hard...LAW and BPA...
the two unprepared subjects...and im so gona struggle thru it.
Time is running out!!

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Swot Vac

For those who dun koe, Swot Vac = Study Break

Life is getting tougher for me, 1 week left and my study plan doesnt seem to work smoothly.Im not sure how long i can stand dis anymore, at times, i felt like giving up...And yesterday nite, i dreamt of my results. And it reads P-P-P-P..:( At all times, i wish dat my dreams will come true BUT certainly NOT dis dream!! If dis was my actual result, I will NEVA forgive myself for being so playful and relaxing dis sem! Haihz...last minute work has neva been fruitful...I hav no choice more but to try my best...
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Its Ivan's bday today but i cant make it to his birthday celebration jus becoz im not done wiv my exam preparations~ Sigh...


Anywayz, just wana wish Ivan a very Happy Happy Birthday for this year thou i koe..exams are approaching...have fun wiv the others tonite!

A lil' description of my fren here: hehe :)
(p/s: hope u wont kill me for d 2nd description!)

HE can be Cool at times..



HE can be Aunty at times....


BUT No Doubt...HE is a Great Friend!

All the best Ivan! :)

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Last day of uni for sem 2 First Year

I'm almost ther to complete my First year studies for my double degree course in Melb Uni!

Thou its the last day of sem 2 and i already finished all my lectures and tutorials for the sem, its not END yet bcoz u koe..whenever u end a game..u must first get thru a Battle..rite, a battle with the Evil exams...haihz *shakes head*..y cant a semester jus end happily without exams?

Well, well, back to reflection of the sem..hmm..i shall say, sem 1 was more fun than sem 2 coz everything in sem 2 just happen like BOOM BOOM BOOM!! and BOOM! its the end of my classes today...so quick and swift dat i dunno wut is happening.. .

Assignments > Break > Assignments > No break> EXAMS!!
what a routine!

Yes, i will have to go thru dis Boring and Challenging routine for 5 years..erm, nope..to be exact, i hav oni 4 years left! woohoo~

Oh yea, the oni difference is that dis sem i have earned quite an amount of money from participating in research experiments and feedback session..not gona disclose the amount i've earned..to prevent ppl askin me for a treat..hehe!

And i shall say that i have found my true interest in studyin LAW and so i will work hard to improve my grades...COMMERCE, well, im doin quite fine...but i guess, my ultimate interest still lies in LAW...yupz..

Nevertheless, i learnt sth from dis sem wic is to Have Faith in Yourself and Ignore Wut Others are doing, afta all dis is your life, why care abt others?! And also, i realise, some people are nice to talk to and some people are not, coz sometimes conversations may be hurtful....(p/s: you may disagree wiv wut i think..but well..dat applies to me for now)

Rite, thats it for this sem! Farewell and im looking forward to greater experiences at uni!

Dont ask me if im excited of completing my first year studies or even dis semester coz weirdly, i have not much feelings about it...

All sorts of emotions and feelings are involved here~

Some of my frens are real excited while some of them feel sad bcoz they hav to leave the subjects and not go to lectures for the subject anymore...hmm...to me, dat feeling is interesting...

And i shall thank all my frens who had given me such a great experience at uni dis sem...known a couple of new friends dis semester and my friend circle is expanding! Good good.

But im still searching for the 'belonged and family' feel i so had with my LM Commitees back in high school..they are jus incomparable! One thing wic i missed so much afta graduating from high school!Hehe..

Till then, 1 more battle to go and im officially done!
And by then, hopefully my life will be better :)

Cheers!

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Week 12

woosh~ hear the sound of the swiftness of time passing?! Unbelievable..

i shall say dat dis semester went by quicker than last sem...maybe bcoz we are flooded by assignments the whole entire semester..yes...until week 12...the last week of the semester...believe it or not?4 months has passed..i still feel like im in mid sem...well ..no choice...the battle is waiting for me in 2 weeks time..EVIL...haihz

Hynoptize for 3 hours straight once i finish my econs lecture today..for some unknown reasons, i was so tired and sleepy even during the lecture and then i headed home...aiks..wasted my whole aftanoon not studyin...平时读书已经比人家慢了,还要浪费时间睡觉...so sad...cant help la..too tired..

oh ya, the library has extended its hours to 3am..actually i planned to go there everynite to study since i will fall asleep at home but one thing, i went there yesterday and it was amazingly crowded..yea..all the lazy bugs have shifted their home to the library..so i came home..i guess..i wont be goin ther everynite...if i were to go, i hav to be there early to save a seat for myself..and im fussy, i cant study wiv noise..so if its too crowded and some ppl actually talk instead of study, i cant concentrate..so i decided to stay at home...Home is supposed to be the place u keep urself alone..provided dat my neighbour dun talk on the phone so loud! for Godsake!

well, my theory before hand is working...im less pressured now...i learn to ignore wut i shouldnt be listening to...and so..im working on my own pace now..not dat im working slowly and taking my own sweet time..its intensive but on my own pace and hopefully all will go smoothly...:)


Good Luck everyone @ Melbourne Uni for your studying and exams!
Lets work hard together!
Gambate!!
p/s: Getting my torts essay back tomoro..gosh..seriously dun give me a heart attack! wish me luck, if my essay is well, dat means i will still hav a chance to score in law...pray hard!

Thursday, October 18, 2007

For now...

For now i guess its better for me to not listen to anyone's conversations...
it hurts when i hear those words from people...
i wished im closed in a chamber for now, working on my own pace without any external pressure pushing down on me....
coz im struggling...and getting really weak emotionally...